we were awoke around one am today realizing a parents worst nightmare (okay… in fairness any one of an awfully long list). our fourteen year old daughter Haley Anne had come crashing into the bedroom howling and bent double in agony, tears streaming down her tortured face.
Haley anne is still at Children’s Hospital with her Mom undergoing a mounting number of tests, and on a morphine drip. it was left to me to get Emma Jo off to school and explain why Mommy and Sissy were not about for the routine.
why is it God makes men like myself so strong physically, but so weak emotionally when it comes to my daughters?
following was part of an email I received (along with a lot of other people), yesterday, that, although generally unrelated to the current plight of my own family, offers terrific perspective.
…this is all I can muster, today.
“I’ll leave you with one last prayer request…
it expresses things in such an elegant manner that given my own anxiety I’ll just surrender my will and efforts to God and the gifted author of these words:
When you dodge a bullet like this, it’s incredibly easy for its ripple to fade quickly. There are mountains of mundane, everyday novelties and necessities just waiting to gobble up all of that fresh perspective you had when danger was so near. That quickening sense of what’s truly important is already starting to fade. I would really love to be able to keep first things first without an immanent threat closing in on me. Wisdom usually doesn’t come easily or without some expense. I’d ask for us – and for you – that God would remind us each how to live well and love well, even more so because we’ve been given the grace of a good report.
If you live in a house and have clothes and aren’t wondering where you’re next meal is coming from, you’re incredibly blessed. If you have any friends or family, BONUS! It’s so easy to get caught up focusing on how to pay for the house, whether the clothes are fashionable and the food fattening. Don’t waste your energy on worry. Just take a minute to say, “Wow. I get to spend another day with people I love. Thanks, God.”
Yes, there are bills to pay, rooms to clean, cars to fix, trash to take out, messes to clean up and hard conversations to have. But underneath all the stuff we catch ourselves complaining about is something we would be destitute without: life. Whatever your biggest problem is today, there are at least a million people on the planet who would give their right arm to be you. Be bold, be grateful, be honest, be humble. Be yourself and enjoy it.”
peace be to my Brothers and Sisters.
brian patrick cork